His family members are also scarred.
On January 15, KST, SUPERIOR gave his first series of media interviews in eleven years as part of promotions for Squid game 2. The first BIG BANG The member touched on several topics while speaking to the press, including his damaging drug scandal.
In 2017, the rapper-actor was involved in an illegal marijuana use scandal that resulted in a 10-month suspended prison sentence. It had a significant impact on his career and public reputation.
In his latest interview, the former BIGBANG member reflected on that phase of his life when he was just entering his 30s. He called it a “wasted time” full of “shame, self-loathing and sincere reflection.
For me, my 30s were a waste of time. I went through a lot of shame, self-loathing, and honest reflection. While making music, I found healing and I want to share that music with my fans.
– SUPERIOR
The scars left by the drug scandal are deep, even on his loved ones. TOP admitted that his parents didn’t like any aspect of his character Squid game 2where it depicts a rapper with substance problems. Despite the success of the show, his family was unable to feel any joy due to the past incident.
He didn’t like any aspect of that character. They didn’t even say, ‘Good job, Seunghyun.’ I think they are still holding back their expressions. Honestly, they still can’t be happy because I caused them so much pain in the past. I don’t think they can still feel joy.
– SUPERIOR
TOP also confessed that his mental health is still in the process of recovering, but he has found solid support in family and friends.
He’s not perfect, but I think he’s improved a lot and become a lot stronger. In difficult times, my family and friends gave me comfort.
– SUPERIOR
Despite the challenges so far, the rapper is optimistic about his path forward.
I can promise and swear that I will never make any more mistakes. It may seem imprudent to say this, but I left BIGBANG with a lot of guilt, and the fans didn’t understand why, which led to misunderstandings and hurt. Now I can finally speak openly in this interview, so I don’t think there will be any misunderstandings. I’m confident in saying that.
– SUPERIOR
Looking ahead to his 40s, TOP said his goal was “live an honest life” and gain stability. He also longed to wake up to the day when the negative publicity around him would dissipate.
I just hope that when I wake up in the morning I don’t see any bad articles about me on Naver. The last 10 years have been so loud.
– SUPERIOR
You can read more about TOP’s recent interviews here.
TOP addresses his current relationship with the members of BIGBANG
