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Kim Sae RonThe mother wrote a letter to her deceased daughter and was revealed through Garo Sero Institute.
Through the YouTube channel of Garo Sero Institute, Kim Sae Ron’s mother shared a letter that wrote to her deceased daughter.
My beloved daughter, Sae Ron. Are you in a hot place? Do you feel better? Today, once again, my head is so bad and my heart seems heavy. They say that winter is about to end and a hot spring is coming. Yet in some way, my frozen heart shows no signs of defrosting. I can’t throw any of your clothes away, your things. Everything remained where it was. I sleep keeping the pajamas because I can’t make me wash them, since they keep your perfume.
You fought so much, always saying you would die. Are you in peace? You were usually joke about the fact that if I were dead, many friends would come, but they really did it … it always seemed like a child for me, but I wanted me to live well. It was a great source of comfort. I was able to rejoice because there were so many people who knew the true colors of my daughter. Have you seen all the people who came? Who cares about the money. If only I was at your side just a little longer … I was working and I couldn’t be there for you during your last moments. Were you scared?
Looking back, everything I have are regrets. You have suffered all this time. Maybe I couldn’t accept the way you wanted to let everything go, saying that you could also become the person that the media have made you. You promised me you would survive, it doesn’t matter what …
Mom, should we take a walk at the Hangang Park today? Mom, should we go to play Badminton? Mom, should we volunteer with aunt and neoguri today? [T/N: while unconfirmed, it is believed Neoguri is the name of a dog Kim Sae Ron rescued from a puppy factory] Mom, today I painted a bright image as you wanted. Mom, I want to eat cold cucumber soup. Mom, can you do fried anchovies for me? Mom, turn on the TV. Mom, turn on the lights. Mom, the washing machine begins. Mom, I frightened when it is dark and silent. Mom, mom, mom … suddenly jump because I can still feel your chat right next to me, as if I were still here.
I have always told you not to publish photos. Avoid people and go home. Don’t stay out late. Don’t drink … looking back, I realize that everything I’ve ever done was telling you not to do things or be careful, but you just were trying to overcome every day. I’m sorry, my daughter. I thought to prevent you from doing things was the way to protect you. I kept saying that I trusted you, but in reality I was trying to hide you. I am sorry. And now people continue to tell me to explain everything. But why? I couldn’t bear to let you go like this. All I wanted was an excuse [from them] To make me become a liar and make sure that this never happens again. But all I get in return are the words that deny my existence and require explanations.
It was difficult, right? How difficult it must have been. How broken has your heart for three whole years? All this time was wasted when it should have passed with love. Don’t worry. Even if the world does not know, the mother knows. We know. Your friends know it. And the people who really knew you, everyone knows it. And I’ll be fine. Did you tell me, remember? ‘Don’t worry, mom. Even if the whole world does not know, I do it. There is a lot of confusion, right? I am sorry. I will finally let you rest in peace now.
The letter is shown in full in a video narrated by a voice actor assumed by the Garo Sero Institute.
