In the 267th episode of the entertainment show tvN “Your Block Quiz” aired on October 30, G-Dragon had appeared as a guest.
In the episode, G-Dragon shared that he considered stopping releasing albums after release “Coup d’état”, said, “I wasn’t yet 30 at the time, but I had been an apprentice since I was 6, had made my debut at 19 and was about to join the army the following year. In short, I have been a trainee for 11 years and active as a singer for 15 years, so I have actually only been “Kwon Ji-yong” for 4-5 years. I have been a G-Dragon/GD apprentice for over 20 years. I didn’t even know who I was anymore. When I looked back at myself, I thought, I started doing this because I loved it so much, and I’m still doing what I love, I’m still loved, and I don’t miss anything. So why am I not happy? I shouldn’t have anything to be unhappy about.”
G-Dragon revealed, “Even on world tours and in the spotlight, I never really left the studio, both for Big Bang activities and my solo work. I didn’t know where to go and, even if I had gone out, I wouldn’t have met anyone. Everything was resolved within this space (the studio). The movie I really liked back then was “The Truman Show.” I thought, is this what it feels like to be in a real “Truman Show”? Many people love and adore me, but there are also things I don’t want to show. I think a lot of different thoughts overlapped then. And, of course, there was a time when it was difficult for me to find comfort in anyone. Since everything was fine, I felt like I was just greedy for asking for comfort. I don’t think I could go back even if I tried. There were more than 100 staff members traveling with me on tour, all working for me, so I couldn’t complain to anyone about my difficulties.
He continued, “I didn’t feel good inside, but I couldn’t express it, so on the outside it seemed like nothing was wrong, but inside I was just festering. I kept working until the last minute before joining the army. During the tour, the most common thing I asked was, “Where are we?” I would wake up and three days had passed and the staff would tell me we were in another country. I was so freaked out. This pattern continued and a year went by and it was honestly difficult to keep my mind in good shape.
He continued and shared, “I think I was quite confused after being in the same environment for so long. I felt so lost. So before going to the army, I wanted to introduce myself to people, not only as GD, but as Kwon Ji-yong. The last album I released before the enlistment was called “Kwon Ji-yong”. The name of the album is “Kwon Ji-yong” and the songs are very personal stories. I released the album, but I hoped not many people would listen to it.”
He then added, “Listening to the album “Kwon Ji-yong” is like looking at old childhood photos at home – it’s always nice to listen to. BIGBANG Songs like “Day By Day”, “Lies” seem easy listening, while the songs of “Kwon Ji-yong” seem more like stories than songs. Now that some time has passed, my mind has calmed down, and as I have focused on my health, my face has become a little swollen, my expression and speech have changed from before . It’s not that sharp, but I personally like it.”
Source: Daum
