“It was nice, kind of bad…”
Koreaboo
BLACKPINK‘S Rose has been in the spotlight lately as she prepares for the release of her debut album, Rosie. Most recently, Rosé opened up about the dark side of her impressive popularity, including her struggles with anti-fans and their bullying, during an interview with The New York Times.
During the interview, Rosé revealed the inspiration behind the album track “Vampirehollie,” which is also the name of her new Instagram account. He explained that the song was born out of his experiences with the previously private Instagram account, meant to escape the pressures of his public persona.
I can’t let you break me like this.
— “Vampirehollie” lyrics
The account appears to have given the superstar a sense of freedom and privacy. When this was taken away from her, Rosé didn’t take it very well.
It’s my Finsta. And then some fans found out, and there are some people who want to be negative, and they tried to find all ways to get to me. They eventually got to that account and then used it to cause drama and create – actually trigger me.
– Rosato via The New York Times
The relentless negativity has taken a toll on her mental health, leading her to face the harsh reality of online bullying that disproportionately affects female K-pop idols.
As they discussed the matter, Rosé burst into tears.
I think so. [Rosé starts to cry.] I don’t want to get emotional about it, because I would say I have a pretty strong mentality. For example, I’m very positive and I like to be smart about how things affect me.
But when it actually hit me, I felt pretty, pretty bad. I thought, “Oh my God, I’m going through this.” I never thought I’d do it. I would see things online and always think, I wonder why they let it get to this? When it happened, I was shocked.
– Rosato via The New York Times
Ultimately, the BLACKPINK star revealed that writing about the entire experience and then titling the track “Vampirehollie” helped her cope with the situation. She also explained more about how songwriting has helped her protect her mental health amid online bullying and the rise of anti-fans.
